The Wall

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“Honor the space between no longer and not yet.”

~Nancy Levin


Over the course of the past two weeks, I have hit “The Wall”.  “The Wall” is a well known term with endurance athletes.  It is a sudden and overwhelming feeling of running out of energy. You are running or riding along at what seems like a manageable pace, then seemingly without warning your legs become heavy and then a body-wide feeling of fatigue and sometimes dizziness sets in which forces you to stop.

Anyone that knows me, knows that I’m not a marathon runner.  However this year you could say that I have been running an endurance marathon. A year of endings.  A year of transition.  A year where I have had to let go of what no longer serves me and surrender to the unknown.

What does my wall feel like…
Fear
Uncertainty
Confusion
Frustration
Resistance

I awoke two Saturday’s ago in Houston with every muscle in my body aching as sharp pains shot through my shoulders and neck.  I went to a deep tissue massage therapist who concluded “You are tense!”.  Do you think?!?  Throughout this year, I have had these moments.  This is what my body feels like as it is releasing the old stories and old memories around control.  I knew the pain was short term as my body, mind, and spirit were releasing the old fear story of needing to “have a plan” and instead learning to “trust the unknown”.  This is not the first time I’ve been in the transition zone.  So what do I do in the transition zone?

I SURRENDER.
I surrender by stopping, relaxing, and dancing.

AND YOU?
What transition have you been going through this year?

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