“Honor the space between no longer and not yet.”
Over the course of the past two weeks, I have hit “The Wall”. “The Wall” is a well known term with endurance athletes. It is a sudden and overwhelming feeling of running out of energy. You are running or riding along at what seems like a manageable pace, then seemingly without warning your legs become heavy and then a body-wide feeling of fatigue and sometimes dizziness sets in which forces you to stop.
Anyone that knows me, knows that I’m not a marathon runner. However this year you could say that I have been running an endurance marathon. A year of endings. A year of transition. A year where I have had to let go of what no longer serves me and surrender to the unknown.
What does my wall feel like…
I awoke two Saturday’s ago in Houston with every muscle in my body aching as sharp pains shot through my shoulders and neck. I went to a deep tissue massage therapist who concluded “You are tense!”. Do you think?!? Throughout this year, I have had these moments. This is what my body feels like as it is releasing the old stories and old memories around control. I knew the pain was short term as my body, mind, and spirit were releasing the old fear story of needing to “have a plan” and instead learning to “trust the unknown”. This is not the first time I’ve been in the transition zone. So what do I do in the transition zone?
I surrender by stopping, relaxing, and dancing.
What transition have you been going through this year?
“It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing.
It doesn’t interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive.”
~Excerpt from The Invitation by Oriah Mountain
I received the message last Thursday AM while I was in Racine WI….”Robin I think your cat Phaedra had a stroke!”. My friend Dave kindly took Phaedra to the vet and then picked her up when the vet called him to tell him she was OK to go home. When I arrived at Kent Thursday night and held Phaedra, I knew her days were limited. I had a decision to make that all pet owners dread to make. Phadra was not suffering, but you could see that her quality of life had deteriorated as a result of the mini-stroke.
Around 3am on Friday morning, I was awoken by Phaedra howling from the mediation room. There she sat on the rug next to my Tibetan singing bowls that she cherished. She was waiting for me to play the singing bowls for her. As I played the bowls her body relaxed, she started to purr, and she finally fell back to sleep. Playing the singing bowls every several hours became part of our ritual over the course of the weekend. Attached is a link to a video I made approximately 1 month ago of Phaedra listening to the Tibetan signing bowls.
Around 3am on Saturday morning, I was awoken by Phaedra’s physical discomfort. She was not in pain, just general discomfort as she tried to find a comfortable way to lay in her favorite box. So I got up and went to my cabinet and pulled out “Transform Ease” flower essence and gave it to her. Again her body relaxed, she purred, and she finally settled into her box and fell back to sleep. Giving her flower essence to ease her discomfort every several hours became part of our ritual over the course of the weekend.
While catering to Phaedra’s needs over the weekend, I had a lot of time to reflect. It was just this past February when I journeyed to Mexico to learn Soul Coaching and to dive deep into unearthing and discovering my own unique genius. Now here I am again, with a cat as my teacher, learning more about my own unique gifts and talents.
Based on my weekend experience, I decided to reach out and thank the gifted people (Shakti and Diana)who:
- followed their hearts,
- listened to their intuition,
- and decided to offer their unique gifts and genius to the world.
What is stopping you from bringing your gifts and unique genius out into the world?
Based on my own experiences over the past week and in honor of Phaedra my cat, I have decided to offer the “Discover Your Unique Genius” program for free. Please click on the “guided prompt” below and see if the program resonates with you. The program officially starts on Monday October 10th.