Reconnecting To A Dream


“Embrace your inner childhood dream.”


“What do you want to be when you grow up?”

This time of year always gets me thinking about school and that million dollar question.

When I was 5, I wanted to be a veterinarian.

I grew up on a farm and loved to find and tame all of the wild cats and kittens (my parents would get so angry with me). After I tamed the wild beasts, I would bring a selected cat or kitten to the house, feed it, dress it up in doll clothes, put it into my doll stroller, and then pushed it around. Of course the selected kitten or cat would always wiggle out of the clothes and jump out of the doll stroller, but it would never run away because it knew it was safe, nurtured, and loved.

When I was 8, I wanted to be a farmer.

I remember distinctively the day a friend of my fathers’ asked me the million dollar question and the response that came out of my mouth. I could feel his shock and horror that I didn’t want to be a wife, a mother, or a nurse, but instead a farmer. It was that day that I discover I was intuitive empath.

When I was 10, I wanted to be a dancer.

I loved how I felt when I danced to music Dancing grounded me and fed my soul. From junior high school through college I took dance classes as dancing made me happy.

So how do my childhood career dreams fit into my life these days?

In a previous post, I spoke about my superpower of “herding cats in Corporate America”. Who would of thought herding cats as a child would lead into a career of mentoring and coaching people?

While living in England a set of serendipitous events occurred which led me to discover dance meditation and as a result I rekindled my love of dance. So much so, I became a certified facilitator and began offering Chakradance workshops last year.

After a health crisis in my 20’s, I started down the path of healing and as a result I took courses and learned how to grow, harvest, and prepare herbs to make teas, essential oils, and flower essences to heal my body, mind, and soul. I worked with a Celtic Shaman in England and learned how to work with energy and nature in order to heal. I continued on my path of self-discovery and journeyed to Guatemala, Ecuador, Peru, and Columbia to learn about the importance of ceremony in every day life from various shamen. One shaman in particular grew up on a large sugar cane farm in Ecuador. He still lives on the family farm (picture above) and is still a farmer, however his specialty is “planting people” (figuratively). People from all over the world visit him for vision quests. He plants each person somewhere on his land for 5 – 12 days with minimal food and water. He checks up on each people daily, just like a farmer, to make sure each person is OK. At the end of the vision quest, the person returns to the farm house to discuss their personal journey. I found the process fascinating, even though I have no interest in “not” eating for 5 days. What I found most interesting in his story is that as he is a farmer that plants people. For years I made the joke that I’m an artist and that my art form is people as…

I grow people

So in reflection I’m following my childhood dreams. Maybe not as I or society envisioned, but the threads are there. So what is next? I’ve decided that it’s time to come out of the closet and to start incorporating all that I have learned into creating new self-discovery “growth” experiences for my tribe. Over the course of the next few weeks I will be providing more detail and dates.

What is one small thing you can start today that your future self will thank you for?

A year from now, you’ll be so glad you started today.

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